The Biggest Mistake In My Life…
Is to have a stubborn concept that how people should behave, should do, should say, should think.
Today, the long distanced lover told me over the phone, there’s a real handbook on how to make yourself unhappy, one of the instruction will be to list down ‘how everyone should do or should not do’, set a list of expectations. And watch people around you behaving accordingly, watch them obey your rules, meet your expectations. Create a page of ‘the things you want to hear’, and a page of ‘things you never want to hear’. then, when people dont agree with you, dont meet your expectations, do those things that they shouldn’t be doing according to your sets of regulation. Piss yourself the fuck off, dragged your mood in blood across the wall, there you go, unhappiness accomplished. — Not in the exact context, but this is the main points of story.
This conversation was like a atomic bomb, the truth bursted in red all over my mind. I realised, in my 28 years of life, i have been nothing but a walking checklist of expectations. i make myself so unhappy whenever one of these boxes on the list wasn’t ticked in red. i turn into this cruel disgusting monster in green and punished everyone around me if they don’t my go way, say the EXACT words of my liking, i pushed people off the cliff if they dont meet my expectations. i hate to admit this, but i (still) am a grade A control freak without absolute no sense of remorse.
I always tell myself. “This is the basic rules of relationship/friendship/human decency”. or “why the fuck is so hard for him/her to just fucking do/say this? its common sense?”. or even ” THIS IS THE MEANING OF LOVE/FRIENDSHIP”.
These words are like self comforting pills, whenever that tiny bit of weak conscience inside me start to kick me and warn me that i m being a psycho, i just had to dry swallow these pills, i will be feeling all fucking self righteous and loud with my words again.
I m a strong believer of no matter at what age you are, u re always learning, changing and becoming better and growing into the person that you would like to be. And EVERYONE had to learn the hard way. if you don’t make mistakes, you will NEVER EVER LEARN. This is also why, i starting to open my heart to get in touch with some of my old friends that i had burnt the bridge with, deep down i know, the sole reason why i cut them out was simply because, they didn’t meet my expectations on my checklist.
Yes, i was a fucking cruel dickhead, no excuse.
Now that it feels like i went through a thousands episodes of a educational tv drama series and all these things happened in my life was scripted, I was meant to walk this path just to learn my lesson. Learn that EVERYONE is different.
This lesson might took my 28 years to learn, but I’m glad i m finally come to realisation of my biggest mistake in my life.
Now, its another journey for me to change for the better,
break this pattern,
be a better lover,
be a better son,
be a better friend,
be a better person,
and mend some broken hearts.
— 5am words of shame and remorse.
The Boys Of Etude House V: 101 Ways to Cover!
Reporting back to Singapore from Korea on a NEW products from ETUDE HOUSE!!!
Yes, early this year two New products collections, the PLAY 101 STICK Collection
and the BIG COVER concealer collections! It’s actually very exciting to introduce
you guys this two collection because you guys sure will love them AS MUCH AS I DO!
I promise you guys!!
The entire BIG COVER Concealer Collection have a special signature Big Cover technology.
The solution actually contain two types of different sizes of cover powder, one is
35nm and one is 10-15nm, (yes, nm is the super micro size of the measurement unit. Lol)
BOTH are much much smaller than the usual cover powder found in the regular concealers,
the big ones helps to cover up on surfaces, the smaller ones will go in depth to cover
up the smaller “holes” on the skin, so it will be a perfect blend. These small particles
helps GREATLY in minimizing Caking and clumps situations!! So bye byebye, Cakey days!
Hello long lasting flaws skin!! This is not unproven, totally tried and tested on my own
skin, and you can also youtube search BIG COVER concealer series, the youtubers are are
raving on this series!! Let me show you guys what are the products in this series!
The Queen of convenience: BIG COVER Concealer BB SPF 50++/PA++!
This is the really my top fav product on the entire range, Because, it made my life
way much simple and easier, I always complain about why is there’s concealers that
actually have sunscreen properties in it, Becos most of the days, I simply just use
a concealer to cover up my eye bags and some pimples, chop chop run out of the house
on some busy days. A BB cream will never product me as much coverage as a concealer,
so… This is BIG COVER Concealer BB will be a life changing product.
AMAZING!!! It’s totally suitable for my combination to oily skin tone, I dislike to
very dewy look type of BB cream, as my skin will extra oily! But this BIG COVER
Concealer BB is VERY long lasting and also very mattifying! It is extremely suitable
for the Singapore weather! I swear u guys should ALL get one, trust me, u guys could
google some LIVE documentary reviews on YouTube!!! They are raving about this BIG
COVER Concealer BB too!!
It comes in 3 Shades: Vanilla, Beige and Sand. ( I m using the Beige tone )
Price/Vol: $26.90SGD / 30g
There are multiples choices you can pick from the Big Cover concealer series,
depending on your liking!
There’s multi-touch applicator, which comes in big bottle size (30g) and also the
smaller pocket size the spot tip concealer (10g), the cushion (5ml) and the Stick!!
I guess the stick and spot tip concealers are BEST for someone who like to travel
EXTREMELY light (me) lol. Yes I hate to carry a lot of bulky items whenever I go
out, especially if I wanna carry just a men’s clutch, and there’s really isn’t much
room for a big bottle of concealer, the super good as nothing size is perfect!
BIG COVER Spot tip Concealer – $11.90SGD
BIG COVER Cushion Concealer – $20.90SGD
( Concealing spots : 3 Shades, Vanilla, Beige and Sand. )
BIG COVER Stick Concealer: not available in Singapore Yet.
The BIG COVER Cushion Concealer have 3 other special colors available which is
super love! The Illuminate (white), Mint (green) Peach Pink (pink)! This three
are magic!! illuminate one helps do highlighting, u can do it for the under eye,
nose bridge, lip tips and even cheek bones. Mint is for covering up your redness,
like pimples and the nose corners. Peach Pink, helps on uneven skin tones like
around the mouth and smiling line areas!!
My top favorite among this 3, mint obvi….? It’s very hard to conceal pimples,
especially those “alive” ones, this totally helps to even up the color, make
them a lot less visible!!! MUST HAVE!!
BIG COVER Cushion Concealer – $20.90SGD
(Illuminate, Mint + Peach Pink)
Another new Collection series, the PLAY 101 STICK Collection!! I always joke
hat the PLAY 101 STICK It is a fatter version of the PLAY 101 Pencils. Actually
they are!! They highly blendable, multiple purposes. They are for the overall
face, the lips, the eyes, the nose, the cheeks… Basically you can use them
First let me share with you guys the Foundation sticks of The Play 101 stick!
These Foundation is super creamy, provides high coverage and even super easy
to apply and use! They comes in 4 shades, much easier to pick one that is closer
to your skin tone! The four shades are, (from lightest to darker skin tone)
#01 Fair, #02 Vanilla, #03 Beige and #04 Sand.
I m using the beige one!!
PLAY 101 Stick Foundation – $24SGD / 7.5g
PLAY 101 Stick Multi Color:
These color sticks comes in 4 (#12,#13,#14,#15) shades for the eyes, cheeks
and lips, and also 2 (#10 & #11) shades for contouring and highlighting!
4 color shades can be use as blusher, lip stick and even eye shadow!! It comes
a in a darker pink, a light pink, darker orange and a light orange, orange is
still very hot in Korea currently, when I was on the streets in Korea, many
girls are still using orange shade lips products!
The highlighting #10 and contouring #11 is A MUST HAVE if you want to get your
3D dimensional face GAME ON. Lol. If you check out any YouTube make up channel,
every make up artist is doing the highlighting and contouring tutorials, these
Play 101 Stick made it much easier, in stick!
PLAY 101 Stick Multi Color: $24SGD / 7.6g
The Play 101 stick Contour Duo, my favorite product in the entire Play 101 Stick
Series, like I said before I hate carrying bulky items whenever I travel out,
it’s a 2 in 1!! Even make up goddess Pony, is using the Play 101 stick Series in
her legendary Taylor Swift make up tutorial video!!! Convenience at it’s best!!
Play 101 stick Contour Duo: $24 / 1.7g x2
On top the all the stick products, there’s another super amazing product that
came along with the collection, the Play 101 Stick Brush!! This is the 1st brush
I ever owned…. Usually I always use my fingers. And I swear now with a brush,
I could tell the difference, applying foundation/blending is SO much easier now!!
Play 101 Stick Brush: $17SGD
This two series collection is by far my top favorite collections ever since I
collaboration with Etude House! 1st series that bring SO much multiple purposes
and benefits into one product and also, makes my life so much simpler, I literally
can skip so many steps now, and the BIG COVER Concealer BB is also super suitable
to my combi-oily skin type, and the highlighting and contouring sticks are like
magic, can make my face much smaller…. How not to love?!
Singapore boutiques are located at:
1. Flagship Store at Wisma Atria #B1-20/21/22
2. 313@Somerset #B2-30
3. Bedok Mall #01-87/88
4. Causeway Point #B1-K02
5. Chinatown Point #01-12
6. Clementi Mall #03-34
7. JEM #02-44
8. Junction 8 #01-48
9. Jurong Point #01-57/58
10. Lot One #01-19
11. NEX #01-63
12. Parkway Parade #01-23B
13. Plaza Singapura #B1-26
14. Tampines 1 #01-15
15. Vivocity #B1-03
16. Suntec City #02-601/601A
17. Bugis Junction #01-107 to 108
Coming right up… Another behind the scenes blog post on the last month’s Bugis
Junction opening!!! Very excited over that blog post as I get to meet make up
goddess, Pony in person, being a LIVE reporter, hosting a event with my close
friends Qiuqiuq and Miyake… Eh… Even a birthday surprise… Totally one of
my highlights of my entire year!!!
Currently on the plane back to Singapore, I had to finish wording this blog post
on the jet…. Because my vision again didn’t come true, I was suppose to work
my ass off during this Korea trip, be more online productive!! But in the end I
only manage to finish 2 blog posts (including this post) in 3 weeks… How lousy
is this..? Okay, blame it on dating, shopping, and also I took up more ads and
shooting in Seoul. Lol. Well at least I get to collect a few more sets of new
photos!! They are super pretty, can’t wait to share!! Till the next post!